Tuesday 18 October 2011

defense mechanism: sublimation


just day 2 in peadiatrics
i dy can feel the pressure..

feeling of insufficiency
no enough time for revision
lots of patients to cover
radiology seminar to prepare
one oncall after another..

it's gonna be a long long week for me..
however, i felt contented
& i actually felt satisfied!
is being busy a good thing??
or it's just me,
subconsciously trying to prevent myself from over-thinking??


p/s: yea, i've figured it out..
defense mechanism: sublimation

Saturday 15 October 2011

失眠


最近常常失眠
可以在床上翻来覆去
眼睛却睁得大大的,就是睡不着
再不然就是半夜突然惊醒
就不能继续睡下去了。。

我知道
我已经感觉到了那个压力
总觉得自己读得不够多
做得不够好
偏偏身边的都是精英、优秀
相比之下,自己显得好渺小。。

也许,是时候认认真真
it's show time!!!